So, the job hunt has begun. Sometimes I get so stressed that I just get nothing done. I basically just run around and get stressed but cannot find a way to focus or an outlet for my stress. Perhaps this little personality quirk is a reason for some of my previous not-so-constructive ways of dealing with stress. Hmmm….Poor Jon. I tend to vent a lot of it on him. I guess I am feeling a little frustrated with him. I know it is not his fault that we are in this situation. I cannot ask him to work a job that he hates anymore than I can expect myself to quit trying to control the situation. I guess I just need to pray for some peace and self-control and just try to take a lot of deep breaths. What I wouldn’t give for a good girls night out and a baby that slept all night so I could have a few too many cocktails!
Anyway, enough of the whining. The house is coming along. My mom has made the curtains for the living room and Jon got the ceiling fan put up, and it looks amazing. If I could ever finish painting the walls, and trim, that little corner of our life would be complete and very livable. Hmm…maybe that would be a good place to start? The kitchen and dining rooms still need curtains. I still need to tile the backsplash in the kitchen. It would really relieve a lot of stress if I did but I really hate tiling. That is one thing I have learned from all this DIY’ing. I hate to tile. It is very unfortunate because you really save yourself a lot of money for something really nice but I abhor it. I would drink while tiling to make it more fun but I don’t think that they would end up very straight.
Better go, I am ending up talking too much about drinking. Believe it or not, I haven’t had a drink in several weeks and it was just one beer. But after rereading this email, it is starting to sound like I am quite the lush. Just having a sh***y week.
