Wow, o.k. be ready to listen to me whine. Isn’t it weird how life plays out? I have been thinking how hard everything has been trying to be the mother that I want to be and remodel our house and get a LLL Group started and now that life finally feels like it is settling down and I feel like I can breathe again, life turns upside down. I mean, the kitchen and dining room are nearing completion and I am finally feeling like we can have friends over and start enjoying our weekends when Jon came home from work today to tell me that his boss has demoted him.
Wow. I mean they sat down and his boss basically told him that he isn’t happy with him and he isn’t going to continue to pay him on salary. He is going to lower his pay to hourly (although he didn’t say what that would be). Wow. So, where do we go from here? We can’t afford to take a pay cut. This seemed like a good job because there would be room to grow so now what?
I guess this is a problem for me because I want to be taken care of. I guess as progressive as I would like to think that I am, I like taking care of my husband and children. I like to make them healthy and good meals and keep them in clean clothes and in a clean house and I like for Jon to take care of me financially so that I can continue to do what I do…
If we take a big pay cut, I will have to get a job to be able to afford our house. I guess that is sad on so many levels. We could move away so that I could go back to school and get a good job but I love our house. I really love it even more now that we are fixing it up. I can’t imagine leaving my babies. I mean, it would kind of be nice to go back to work and be appreciated for what I do and have other people acknowledge that I am good (or at the very least) competent at what I do. I really enjoyed that in the Navy. I was good at what I did, I worked very hard, and I was respected. I was even offered a few jobs when I got out but I didn’t want to stay on the East Coast……
I just can’t imagine leaving my babies every day. I would miss out on so much of their lives….
Well, better go…Getting too upset.
