Well, be prepared for a long blog. It has been awhile and so much has happened! So, where did I leave off? Probiotics…Okay, well, this isn’t going to be in order. I guess it is going to be from now back-dated to then…..
So, my last pap came back High grade SIL. That was particularly concerning since the one previously was completely normal. So, I went and had a colposcopy done. Those results came back normal. They went ahead and did the LEEP surgery anyway. That is basically where they just scrape off all the cells off of your cervix and then they send those off to the pathology lab. I am still waiting for those results. So, I am a little bit concerned. I hope that I didn’t have this surgery for no reason since it could cause problems getting pregnant, maintaining a pregnancy, and dilating during delivery but then again, it is better safe than sorry. Usually I am against medical interventions just becasue but I guess when they start throwing the word “precancerous” around, it makes me a little squeamish. So, the Dr.’s don’t know what is going on and they are all scratching their heads as to how the colpo can come back normal and the pap was so bad. I think I know…..There is a much higher power at work here:)
Okay, I quit working at the airport. It just wasn’t working out. I think for me, it was just too hard working with 17 year-old’s and being treated like a 17 year-old. I just couldn’t take it anymore. The money helped out a lot but it made me crazy.
So, we finally have some stability in our lives. Jon has decided to keep working out at the airport. The condition is that at the end of 3 years, he has to take the A&P Test so that he will be a certified mechanic. I am surprised. For some reason, I never saw him working for my dad. I really didn’t think that he would like it but he does. Surprisingly enough, he REALLY likes it. Hmmm….It is odd how he can get along better out there than I can….I mean, I am family! Perhaps that is the problem LOL>…..
Jon is officially finished with Rehab. This last week was crazy with all these changes…..I mean, I had surgery, Jon decided to stay, he finished with rehab. Wow. He isn’t back to 100% but that will just take time and stretching and strength-training. It is like a breath of fresh air to be able to have some normalcy back in our lives. As much as I like to think I am a fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants type of girl, I crave structure and stability, but, it has to be my way and I have to be able to change it at a whim…ha ha!!
So, I am back to working on the house which makes me happy. I finished the bed(mostly). We used an old water-bed frame to make a platform bed to put our mattress on and made an upholstered headboard with buttons. The nice thing is that due to the fact that it was a water bed, it has drawers underneath it so that bit of storage should really help….So, now I need to paint the ceiling, walls, and trim and then I can hang the curtains that my mom made. I need to buy blinds and fix our dresser and dig the screw out of the ceiling fan so it quits making that ching, chink a ching noise and we will be done!! Hmmm….now that it is all written down, that kind of sounds like a lot…ARGH….The hard thing about the bedroom is that I CAN’T work on it when the kids are sleeping since they sleep in there….
O is now sleeping by herself. It was such a gradual and peaceful transition. We just put the crib/toddler bed mattress on the floor next to our bed and she slept in there 50/50 and then 75/25 and so on and now if she falls asleep with us I just put her over there and mostly, she falls asleep there to begin with. It is lovely to have more room to spread out……
So, monday is my check up appt. They will check to make sure that my cervix is healing properly and hopefully, give me the results. Please send me good vibes or prayers or thoughts:)
Life is so much better now that things are getting sorted out. I have been sewing up a storm for the Pumpkin Festival and cooking and we have gone to the park almost every day…..Wow, it is wonderful to not have so much stress. I think I truly appreciate being home with the girls now since I have experienced what it is like to work and how much time you miss with your kids……Yesterday I was telling Jon that I will run, not walk, when the kids are in school to the job force because I will be ready to be acknowledged for what I do and he looked at me with a hurt look and said “well, who will be home for them when they get home from school and in the summers?” What a sweetie. I think it is because I rattled off some research the other day about how much trouble kids get in from after school until their parents get home and how that time is pivotal…..I guess he actually listens to me…..I think he has also seen what it is like when I work and likes it when I can be home and cook and bake and take care of everyone……I was talking to my good friend about this the other day and why doesn’t the goverment compensate us for raising good kids? They should just add up all the money is would cost for them to be sickly and in jail becasue we are raising breastfed, attached little persons and just give that to us yearly. It would truly be cheaper and less of a drain on economy than to try to fix the screw ups later.
After all, we all know that if a child does not attach by age 3 it is cognitively impossible. They can be functional but more than likely, they will be a sociopath…..Anyway, that is the latest and greatest in our lives. Things are good….finally……
