spirited…….

The midwife stopped by this week.  It was really exciting.  I am supposed to be 16 weeks along but I am measuring 20.  I don’t remember consistently measuring this high last time but oh well.  I hope the midwife is right.  She suspects I am farther along than 16 weeks.  The baby is 12-16 inches long she thinks so she suspects 20 ish.  We will see.  I don’t want to get my hopes up and have this baby after my due date after I expected to have it before.  I am officially getting excited now about the baby.  I have started crocheting a shawl to throw over my shoulders while I nurse.  I have also started trying to build up the baby clothes stash again.  I have started looking for some good fabric for a sling for work so I can nurse the baby while I work.  I was reading through the midwife’s postpartum instructions and I forgot how cute newborns are and I think it is finally starting to hit me, as weird as that sounds.

The girls are doing great.  I am trying to remember to be kinder and gentler.  It is hard when I am so tired and have no patience.  O has really started acting out and I have tried to give her some extra attention lately and love and that seems to be working.  I wonder when I should start thinking about a birth kit? 

Olivia turns 5 April 5th.  My how time flown by!  Well, since I forgot her birthday last year, I thought I had better do something this year.  Especially with the new baby coming.  There won’t be a lot of time next year.  Mom is helping me to plan her a "Barbie" party.  I think it is going to be great.  They are all going to come in their dress-ups, and bring their favorite Barbie.  Mom and I are making Barbie paper dolls with dresses for them to play with.  They are going to bead necklaces, color Barbie coloring sheets, and we are going to put ribbons in their hair and hair glitter.  Of course, they can also play with their Barbies!  I think it is going to be fun and I am actually excited about it.

We are expecting baby #3.  Not really planned.  So, it is taking me awhile to get used to the idea.  Of course, all babies are blessings and we will be overjoyed once he/she gets here.  We have finally decided to have a homebirth.  We have been trying to work within the system to have a hospital birth but it has really been kind of a struggle for us.  I mean, the OB, Ped, and everyone has been really supportive and it takes them awhile to come around but they do….I just don’t feel up to the challenge I guess.  It would just be so much nicer to just have the midwife come to our house, have the baby at home, and then go to bed….So, I am really excited about our decision.  The only hang up is that it is soooo expensive and of course, insurance doesn’t cover it.  We will manage and I know it will be worth it. 

So, I am 16 weeks along and measuring wayyyy  big as usual.  The first visit, the midwife was wondering if I might be having twins (as usual, Norla did the same)  she couldn’t find another heartbeat or feel another baby so she ruled it out.  Plus, I had already had a sono at about 6 weeks…But, this was what happened with the girls also.  I am short, and have no torso, there really is no where for the baby to go but out and up.  She suggested my due date is wrong by a couple of weeks but we thought that with Olivia too and I ended up being 15 days late!  Not getting trapped into that thinking again!  I bet this baby will come in September, due date is August 29th according to the ultrasound.

This time, we are actually going to find out.  We didn’t with the other two but this is the last baby so it would be nice to know if we can get rid of the girl stuff or not.  Of course, I have already given it all away because I refuse to have another girl.  I guess if we do have another one, we will just get some new stuff:)

I found this beautiful blue/gray yarn at Hobby Lobby half price and I am going to try to make a soaker out of it.  Making baby soakers has really started to get me excited about this baby…Soon, my mom and I will have to finish the Cuddlebun diapers for the new baby too!